Our need to recover drives us to grow, to learn about ourselves, to be different from the expected, to face the painful consequences of our struggle and to persevere. Our need for recovery comes from deep within us. The need for recovery pre-dates our consciousness, our identities. Recovery tears through denial and disrespects lies. Recovery is the spark of our souls, and the root of our child withins enlightenment.
Recovery is the raw force of life, and it threatens traumatised norm those who are by nature spiritually dead or dying. Out of fear of being awakened such parents unconsciously traumatise the child in order to mute our honesty. They humiliate us to force us to lock our truth in back alleys of the mind, and numb our memory with ice of dissociation to keep us from remembering.
Recovery reminds us of what we have buried, what we have sacrificed, and what we cannot bear to remember. We want to forget our own childhood truths, the pains and humiliations we suffered at the hands of our own parents, whom we would prefer to idealise. We want to forget who we might have otherwise become had we lived in healthy reality. And if our child within finally manifests recovery it will force others to remember.
But the recovered do not forget. We remember. We keep alive our connections with our true child within, and we remember what lies buried within all of us. We become the well-diggers into the deep soil, and we have an uncanny ability to know where the pooled water hides. And the more we drink, the stronger we become. Water melts the façade of our trauma, and the façade is death to ourselves.
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